had a great day with my lovely boy :D
& yah, its plaza sing then Orchard.
heee, its so nice to see him after so long.
as he was busy studying for Os
and i have to spent some time with my lovely friends too! :p
so it had been like, 5 days since we last meet up.
well it doesn't matter, although we didn't see each other.
but we always have phone right? (:

as ive said, our first destination is plaza sing.
and he's hungry, so we had pepperlunch ^^
of course, we saw a couple of familiar faces & that make me so paiseh! haha
after that, we plan to walk to orchard, but his friend is coming to meet us.
so yah, we waited.
not long after, we had a so called shopping session together :D
soon its 5pm and we headed home!!! heee

HELLO HELLO!
i'm so called back from hospital.
& i still haven't operate on my throat yet :(
guess why?
the problem is not on me, but the doctor! roar!
just this morning, a doctor came up to me and said ;
''well, you're Cheeyanyi eh? so Prof. Henry Tan is supposed to operate on you today right?*nod* but sadly, he's not feeling very well today. so your operation will be postpone to wednesday.''
then i was like , '' tsk -.- i've waste my precious time in the hospital''
the worse thing is, ALL MY THREE BLOOD TEST DONE YESTERDAY IS WASTED!
roarroarroar!
the first time, they draw a little bottle of my blood for some testing.
then later on, the nurse say they need more blood from me.
and so, i went in and they draw my blood twice!
as the doctor say that my blood clot very easily. so yah TWICE!
& the third time,they poke in a needle.
the needle will be in my hand until the day i discharge.
so the needle which is insert in my hand 'permanantly' is hurting me so much!
cus they need the needle to connect with a packet of , don't know what, after my operation so i won't feel hungry.
but then its all wasted!
after the doctor said the op will be postponed, the nurse help me to take the needle out.
which have alr been there ,on my hand, for like almost a day!!!
of course, my hand got a little bruise the moment she took it out :(
i hate needle/blood test/ injection!!!

the one night stay there almost kill me.
i was so bored that i didn't know what to do.
i was turning my head left, right , left, right -.-
if not, i will be sleeping.
thats the only 2 thing i can do in the hospital.
then finally its around 10pm & we're going to sleep.
unfortunately, my ward is shared with all 5 children.
& they're as noisy!
at like 3 pm, i was waken up by a little girl's crying just two bed away from me.
she was like, crying so loudly that i have to use my pillow to cover my ear.
soon, more babies started crying.
when all the crying continues, i was getting a little annoying.
but too bad, i must tolerate : (
after all, they're still some innocent babies, yah? :D

alright, after having an experience of staying in hospital.
i know what to bring when i re-admit in on Wednesday (:
so i will be going in on Wednesday again.
&luckily the operation is on the same day(wednesday, afternoon?).
or else i gonna went crazy!
i'm like going in yesterday for a vacation -.-
do nothing there except for blood test & more blood test.
ohyah! & that fucking tube which is insert from my nose into my throat.
ewwwwwwwwwwwww!
because they need to ensure that the postpone of operation will not affect anything.
so they need to take a tube and then insert from my nose down to my throat.
luckily they did spray some anesthetic in my nose so i won't feel the pain.
and the tube is making me so uncomfortable!
it was like, having something stuck in the nose.
& the feeling is as if you breath in water from your nose.
can you imagine the pain?
ewewewewew!


Ain't this little baby adorable?
i find him super duper cute sial!
this baby is just beside my bed.
as ive said.
i'm being surround by all babies/little girlgirl & boyboy.
i'm the only teenagers there.
& so, my utensil there is all cartoon cartoon's
i can't help but feeling a little stupid by using the plate/bowl there.
its really as if i'm being treated like a small girlgirl because i'm in Children tower :p
( fortunately, all the staff there is caring & friendly :D )
if only i'm still in the hospital :(
i miss the baby~
and looking at the baby make my 'desire' for baby grew higher!
HAHA. i know i'm lame.

well i'll be away from blogging starting from today onwards.
so this will be the really last post till i'm back! :D
wah, whatthehell
i'm so hungry now :(
now, i can say : I REALLY CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT BREAKFAST! :(
( i can faint anytime without breakfast T_T )
for the whole of today&tomorrow, WATER will be my breakfast, lunch & dinner or even supper? haha
& after the stupid op,
my mom says : PORRIDGE will be your food(breakfast, lunch & dinner!)
how am i going to survive?! can anyone tell me?
but there's of course an advantage for me :D
which is able to slim down within this period *YIPEE!


alright alright
i should pack my stuff & shower now or else i gonna run out of time! :D

Wish me luck eh?
haha, well
i'll be away from blogging :D

& so we got back our Report Books.
luckily i have only 2 underlines under my SA2, though 2 can be a lot to you guys.
but i thought i will have like ,5?
well, my class position is like 16/36 :(
so so lousy, but i did improve from last year's 25/35
and level position for this year's overall is 51/111 , as compare to 81/111 last year is a great improvement for me (:
so this is how i scored for my 10 subject.

ENGLISH; 53 [C6] :(
CHINESE; 79 [A1] :D
MATHEMATICS; 59[C5]
SCIENCE; 56 [C5]
GEOGRAPHY; 60 [B4]
HISTORY; 64 [B4]
LITERATURE; 68 [B3]
D&T; 72 [A2] :p
HOMEECON; 60 [B4]
ART; 62 [B4]

Total = 633/1000 [63.3%]
& PROMOTED TO S3 EXPRESS *yipee :DDDD






& SERIOUSLY 2E3 IS A GREAT CLASS TO BE WITH!
i've spent two lovely good year with all my beloved classmates :D
2007 will surely be my best&memorable year in secondary school life, yah?
without everyone, i will not have such a nice year.
so e3ian, YOU'LL BE MISSED!
i'm so not willing to be part with you guys :(
if only we can stay together as a class throughout the whole four year, that will be fantastic!!!!
oh well, nothing really last forever.

alright! tomorrow will be the last day of secondary two's life D:
i'll be like so damn sad.
after going through so much thing, we're about to separate class!
although i will be sad when we're not in the same class.
but i guess this will be a good thing for us?
cus you simply doesn't want to talk to me :(
even if i take the initiative to talk to you first.
your answer will always be,' i don't know','oh','yah' and 'okay'.
that hurts :(
i'm not doing any illegal thing, so why are you treating me this way? ;[
thats why i'm so sad ( for a moment) today.
so perhaps you'll be super glad when you know i'm not in the same class as you.
but well, i gonna miss everyone like hell (:


& time flies, e3ians is going to have a class chalet this coming sunday.
so fast eh?
e3ians! can you guys please be more co-operative?
here we're trying our best to get the whole class for the chalet & there you are telling us all sorts of dumb excuse , telling us that you guys doesn't want/can't go.
just this once, please go.
this is the last time our class will get together.


also, as ive said.
my important day is coming! haha
around 2 more days & i'll be inside having 'fun' LOL!
* must stay positive : D
i'm so glad that i will be going in this sunday.
i am not crazy or something okay.
its because if i gonna postpone the date,
i have no idea how big my lump will grow.
the lump used to be invisible & people won't realise (unless you touch it)
BUT NOW IT CAN BE SEEN QUITE OBVIOUSLY.
just like one swollen thing pop out.
even when i take photo, the lump will be visible.
perhaps if i drag it until November or even December,
i probably can't see my neck anymore >.<
if you don't believe just see.
(i know i'm lame to take picture)
but just to show that i'm not exaggerating.
& don't say i make it sound so serious by having operation

ohwell
as i said in my previous post.
we will be going for a dragonboat session today.
but the weather spoils everything.
actually we're picked to go for kayaking & not dragonboat.
i think thats because they do not have enough supplies of dragonboat.
so yah. kayaking instead.
still, we can't even touch the 'boat'
simply because of the stupid rain >:[
so at last the rain stop.
BUT we can only step into the beach? for like, not yet 5 minutes -.-
& thats all!
guess what we did in the water?
the instructor ask everyone to walk into the water & float for nothing -.-
just that few minutes in water & finished!
and there we go~ for showering, tsk
do you think thats call a kayaking even?
not even stepping in and sit on the 'boat'
as if we're there to learn swimming. (float -.-!)
& i'm so sleepy now.
after the 'kayaking'



* i'm really very sad when you ignore me :(
although we did talk for a few seconds today.
but you're still so cold toward me :(
where have our friendship gone?

We've been really close friend since this year.
& I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold to me :(
I AM REALLY SAD!
seeing you, ignoring me.
as if we're a total strangers.
even if i take the initiative to talk to you, you seem to pretend you didn't hear me.
why? i didn't want a friendship which i cherish a lot to turn out like this.
doesn't mean i have a __ mean i must be with him all the time, you see?
and seriously i hope we can still go out for some shopping or anything, just like how we used to.
but you seems to push me away.
thinking that i might neglect you'all.
I WANTED TO GO OUT WITH YOU,
TALK TO YOU ABOUT EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD,
and you don't want to continue with this friendship i think?
you simply can dump away this friendship just like that.
just because i have a __ : (
please please please,
i want back this friendship D:


so today we went for a bowling session.
it was kinda fun.
at least better than we do nothing in class, yah?
& we took a couple of photo :D

A nice day spent :D
but still, school hours are real bored!
& we're supposed to have Sports Carnival today.
all because of the wet weather,
they called it 'postpone' & i'll say 'cancel' instead.
right?cus they simply have no more time for us to have the carnival.
so we'll have nothing to do in class other than sleep, talk, play cards & day-dreaming.
i just realised, after exam, we're feel-free to do whatever we want.
the school don't even care if we're release early, as early as 12.30 -.-
its like, you go to school just to take attendance.
then you can go, tsk tsk

so when we're release & i went to find ____ : p
& spent the rest of my afternoon, or rather evening, there : )

i'm so deadbeat now :(
feel so sleepy.
BUT I'M VERY UNCOMFORTABLE!
my stomach is empty since morning.
i only ate breakfast & nothing for lunch( except for a bottle of mineral water)
and only a cup of milk at night, as dinner : (
thats my meal for the whole of today.
the worst thing is, i don't even feel that hungry like i used to.
after i consume the cup of milk, i feel like vomitting DDD:
i see fruits only, i feel disgusted.
ohmygod : ( howhowhow

There are only the undying three words that we tell each day. Those three simple words of simple truth and vast meaning.

‘I Love You’

Anything else doesn’t matter, does it?

:D



* You're so sweet, my dear :D

: DDDDDDDDDD

GOD! PLEASE GRANT MY WISH (:
GOODLUCK TOMORROW
:DDDDDDDDDDD
i'm damn scared.
& my hands are bloody cold now >:[







you better don't have any regret.
or else i gonna went crazy immediately.




OHMYGOD! guess what i've found?
*enjoy everyone!! haha

ohwell, at least i didn't fail any subject for the whole year.
two Cs(both 52), three As & the others are Bs.
seriously i am not very satisfied with my English & Science.
cus these two subjects is the main reason why i still got C in my reportbook
i actually aim for all B and above.
but well, since i do not fail any.
i should be contented enough, yah?
:DDDDDDDDDDDDD







* i'm sorry, but what ive said to you is 100% true.
so please believe me.
& i pray that i can overcome this fear, which has been following me since the day i'm sensible enough to think.
for the sake of you, i'll try my very best to overcome everything.
you're my everything, so please don't leave me alone :(

results was like, so far so good?
or perhaps i shall say bad instead?
i have no idea.
from what i know is,
i've done badly for my most important ever subject, English!
alright i know i passed for my overall & will be able to go up the Three-Express
but! as you can see, 15/45 is a ohmygod! :(
i cried and that's for sure! who won't?
please don't ever say its a small matter to cry over.
well, try putting yourself in other people's shoe.
seriously if you were the one getting this kind of shitty marks for eoy,
can you take it?
this is a very crucial year for everyone.
if you were to fail English, you gonna drop to Normal.
will you cry? of course right!
so the moment i saw the horrible red marks appearing infront of me.
i was telling myself : don't cry, don't ever. probably i'll be able to pass for my overall.
it was useless, my eye become teary.
even though i have already expected how my English results to be like,
but i'll never be prepared to get such low marks!
this is the worst English result's ive ever get.
still, i have to thanks everyone who've tried to cheer me up.
i know i'm a crybaby, no matter how hard you guys try to tell me not to cry anymore.
i still keep on crying&crying.
( i'm irritating eh?)
i really did tried to stop myself,
but the moment i stop & saw my f 'ing 15/45.
there'll be scene of how 'kelian' i will be when i drop to Normal D:

& anyway i did not do as bad for my other subject.
sadly, i still fail my Science by one mark! :(
other than my Science & English, i pass for all my other subjects.
i'm glad that i finally pass my history :D
but i guess, my previous test/exam will pull my overall down.
well, lets see how i score for the whole the year tomorrow.
hopefully it'll be a good news, yah? (:


* i gonna miss you aloads, like hell loads!
its so gleeful to see you, still caring (:
( i don't know? maybe its only because i ________ )

is it always so difficult to communicate with a guy who's a little older than you?
seriously i find it super hard!
we'll never understand what is on their mind.
anyhow, they're still older & a little more mature than us.
surely gap will be present :(


this is what you'll get mixing Pepsi&pork

HELLO! :D
i'm blogging once again.
suddenly, i do not know what i can post for the past few days.
its good that today is already Monday,
we'll be going to school tomorrow,
i miss schooling even this short four days of 'holidays'
i wonder how can i survive for the long long December holiday.
it gonna be a two month break, ohmygod.
nevermind, i'll struggle through :D










* its always great to be a happy person (;
at least i wouldn't miss you like hell when you're gone.
there'll still be a connection between us :p

Hooray! eoy is officially end today!!!
i'm so elated& 11th of Oct is finally here :p
but i guess, while we're enjoying.
the sec 4s are struggling for their O's eh?
good luck for everyone taking O's this year (though its still a little early to say ^^ )

dnt paper end at 9 ( so damn early -.- )
as a few of us wanted to 'celebrate' the end of the examination.
we didn't want to go home straight, instead we went loiter around lol
after having breakfast+lunch at Pastamania
we went for a movie; MY DNA SAYS I LOVE YOU :)

I CAN CONFIDENTLY TELL YOU THAT THIS MOVIE IS WORTH YOUR MONEY!
maybe only in my opinion & you guys may think this is really boring.
but who cares? at least i enjoy myself during the movie right?
i love every scene in the movie.
the sweet lines, ''i want to change because you mean a lot to me.''
'' i don't wan to break up''
'' you can have my cake of ILOVEYOU''
ohmygod, especially towards the ending.
when the girl confessed about why she ate the pills for.
ITS REALLY SO SO SO SWEET!
mind you, i keep on emphasizing on the 'sweet' cus it really are sweet!
watch it if you haven't!
the movie starts showing today, 11th october.
we're the first batch to watch it i guess.
but the seats is only occupied by 15-20 people out of that hundreds seats?
anyhow, I'M JUST SO LOVING IT! haha

& ohyah! guess what we saw at plaza's cinema?
ITS A COFFIN!
at first, we thought people held their funeral near the cinema.
but when we slowly walk closer for a look.
they're only advertising for the movie ;DEATH AT A FUNERAL.
because of that dumb movie, they spend thousands dollar purchasing the coffin -.-
it really look like real funeral please, with the coffin and 'flower?'


*THE REASON WHY I SURVIVED IS TO LET PEOPLE ''SHOW OFF'' THEIR TALENT OF LYING. LIES ALWAYS SURROUND ME :(

yipee! one last paper to go & we're free! :D
finally we are done with the troublesome art.
and this is the last time we're doing art!
i must say : ''this is so shiok man! NO ART=HAPPY PERSON'' :p
tomorrow's the dnt.
till then, e3ians will count down.
with : 54321! wooooooo *claps
that moment will be great!! ^^v

* I MISS MY FRINGE TERRIBLY! >:[
GIVE ME BACK MY FRINGE!! sobsob
i just had my fringe cut yesterday.
seriously i know it sucks & i look dumb with that short(!) fringe.
so i've decided to clip up my fringe to school everyday.
i'm so not gonna let it down until i get my ideal length c:



DO YOU BELIEVE A CAT CAN HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH A DOG?
GOOD UNTIL THE LITTLE CAT WILL SUCKS THE DOG FOR MILK?
i bet you'll never believe, but look!
the cat is really sucking (we didn't force the cat)



This is personality test is god damn accurate!
@: You keep pretty much to yourself, and mostly open-up to those who are really, really close to you—your family and best friends, which also means you’re really trustworthy and loyal. You tend to be quiet and sometimes get embarrassed easily.



ASHRAF : you wait long long xp
ZELIANG : hopefully *pray :D

YOU TRY SO HARD TO DENY
ALL THE MISTAKES AND ALL THE LIES
WE'VE HEARD THE BULLSHIT, WE KNOW THE LIES
NO EXCUSES CAN GET YOU OFF THIS TIME

Phew, we're almost complete with the papers :D
which is actually a good/bad thing?
good in the sense that we finally can throw all the stress aside.
bad is that we'd to get back our horrible papers, with all the ugly results.
go home and yah, get ready for all the nagging later on.
ohwell three more papers to go! JIAYOU YANYI! :D
tuesday will be having maths paper 2, wednesday art (!!!)
thursday dnt.
till then, yeah!
everything is done, mwarhahahah :p
the greatest problem is my art now!
don't ever say art is 'easy~'
if you really think so, why not come and help me xp
my topic for art is : LET'S CELEBRATE IT!
which will require us to draw some real-life celebration!!!
roar!
& i'm planning to do christmas.
but i can't find any picture on christmas!
the worst thing is, we can't draw too cartoonize!!!
must be drawn as if they're real man.
how can we manage it?
we're only a secondary two student >:@
any kind-soul can help me find the picture so that i can draw? :(
i'm left with very little time.
by now, i should be already well-prepared for the art on wednesday.
but i've yet done a single thing!!

During a relationship, there will be times when both of you had a really bad argument.
It could be that she had done something really bad that hurt you bitterly
or it could be something that he had done that brought out all the sorrows in you.

Then how far would you go to forgive a person?

It’s strange that many people claimed that they would do almost anything for the ones they loved.

But when it comes to forgiving someone,
these people would be the first to omit from their list of ‘everything that I’m willing to do’.

I ever heard a story about a guy and his fiancee.

They knew each other for many years since secondary school.
As a couple, they went through many ups and downs.
Every time they would compensate each other’s mistake and forgive each other no matter what.

Time passed and soon both before finally decided to settle down and start a family.
So wedding plans were made and they even bought a house and finished renovation.

As both their parents were rather traditional,
both of them were not supposed to see each other on the night before their customary marriage.

The guy didn’t have any pre-wedding last bachelor’s night program so he decided to go to their new house.

When he reached, the first thing he realized were the
two pairs of shoes left on the doorstep.
One was distinctively his fiancee’s;
the other was a pair of male sports shoe.

As he opened the door,
he heard laughter coming out from the master bedroom.
As much as the guy tried to be self-deceiving,
he opened the doorknob to prove himself wrong.

The sight was disbelieving!


The guy stood at the front of his master bedroom
& saw his wife to be and another man merrily enjoying on their bed.
The stranger saw him and got dress almost instantly
while the woman just froze at the sight.

The guy then closed the door and sat in the living room
while both got changed and the man left the premises promptly.

His fiancee sat beside him and ask for his forgiveness.

That guy didn’t beat her,
slap her or even scolded her.
He only asked her whether she loves him.
His fiancee could only nod while in tears.

“Then be my good wife from tomorrow on…”
(ohmygod, i'm so gonna melt if i had such a great husband! :D )

He kissed her forehead and left the house.

Both of them got married as per plan the day after.
Anyone who came to their wedding labeled them as the most matches made couple that they have ever come across.

The groom was handsome and successful in his career and the bride was pretty and very gentle.
It was sounded as if a match made in heaven.

The guy didn’t talked anything regarding the incident ever since.

Then…

They got separated half a year after their blissful marriage.

Not because of the girl who strayed again but the guilt that left inside her on the day before their marriage kept haunting her since.

After 3 years of separation, they finally served their divorce letters.
Before the girl signed on the letter, she asked him.

“Why didn’t you scold me…?
Why didn’t you beat me?
I did something wrongful to you…
You know how much guilt you’ve left in me?”

The guy only looked at her and smiles.

“Because I love you… therefore I will forgive you.”
Tell this story to a guy and most probably he will label the groom as the stupidest person on earth.

Tell this story to a girl and most probably she will protest that guys are often the easier sex to stray than girls.

I don’t know that was a script from the drama series or a true-life account but it was told to me by a good friend who apparently knew the bride.

I ever asked myself what I would do if I were that guy.

Will I forgive?

I guess i certainly will… but I’ll never forget… and I would never want to see both of them again.

When you can’t forgive someone you love, it doesn’t mean you don’t love the person deep enough. It’s only the threshold that different people can take when the situation comes.

So how much can you forgive?

Even if you can forgive but can you forget?







ASHRAF; i have no idea. perhaps she's too shock? lol
PEISI; thankyou!!! :DDDDDD
ZELIANG; haha, yah lor peisi~ xp

Health is getting weaker D:
especially my head,
i'd been feel very giddy lately.
the feeling sucks okay.
its like, you can't turn your head too fast or too quickly.
or else you might faint anytime :(





watch it!
darn! this is unbelievable.
you must see the whole video.
first half of it was boring.
but when the video end.
your jaw will dropped!

alright alright alright!
its alway great to know that tomorrow is a Friday!
yeah? so we'll have time to relax for a short short while :D
although its only a "short" one.
but is it better than no 'relaxing-time' AT ALL?
& today is a Thursday, tomorrow is a Friday.
which means we'll have our Mother Tongue papers!
haha, finally we've cleared all the stress papers.
(except for Literature, on the following Monday)
because its MT tomorrow, thats why i have a little free time to blog! :p

We've done like 4 papers?
English,Maths paper 1, Science(ROAR!) and History.
i'm quite sure that i've done extremely bad.
& this is eoy! streaming for secondary two student!
i got this feeling that i might drop to Normal stream
or retain perhaps?
while i was struggling through my Science paper,
i was thinking :''well, i'll be contented & terrified if i can get into 3E3 next year.''
at the same time, my eye are also about to close.
i'm so damn tired.
know why?
cus i wake up at 3 in the morning to study.
but i think that didn't help :(
since i can't do the simplest question!!!
and so i'm really trapped in a dangerous state DDDDDDDDDDD:


well
lets relax.
i'll show you this video.
from my brother.
he's being so dumb okay -.-
& i didn't force him to act.
he acted it willingly

remember a advertisement of M1?
if not, see it & you'll know :p
it kind of funny, watch it!

What should i do?
what is the best for us?
i really don't know.
i can no longer treat him the same like how i used to.
whenever i look at him, i got the kind of 'Stranger' feeling.
i hate to have eye contact with him now.
i will surely try to avoid talking/go near to him.
i can't take it when people try to lie and act like nothing happens.
i will find him super fake!
no matter who is he.
i'll never forgive him if he's really doing such things.
he's no longer the ___ i know since young.
this is ridiculous!
i simply can't believe what i'd saw in his inbox.
why must he do these thing?
will he be hiding it forever&ever?
perhaps he's really 'experience' in hiding things.
since we are not aware of anything all along,
until i saw the message with my own eye!
i always thought i'm blessed.
but i guess i'm totally (!!!) wrong.

ohwell.
what is hope?
i don't understand.
is all your hard work which you'd put in worthwhile?
NO!NO!NO!
no matter how hard you studied.
if you're fated to have a dumb& useless brain,
you'll never do well for anything/everything in the world.
even if you put in your 101% of effort.
nothing will change.
especially when you studied darn hard the day before,
thinking that you might do well in the exam.
but the moment you take your papers & do it.
you'll then understand, a stupid brain will always be stupid.
this is a fact which can't be changed.
its kind of sad when you can't see any 'future' ahead of you.
you tend to cry/sob.
but what's done can't be undone.
no point crying over spilt milk, right?
& the saddest thing in the world is...
when you'd work hard & thats what you get.
a pile of rubbish!
now, you feel totally lost.
didn't know if its best for you to stop everything,
let nature take its course.
or work even hard to achieve what you really want?
if you ,again, work hard.
will the result still be the same? if yes,
then whats the point?
from what i see now,
no hope is seriously better >:'[


god is really being very unfair, you know?!
why can others have everything in the world?
being cherished,pretty,have good figure and have talent etc.
however, a handful of people have to suffer &nothing in the world belong to him/her?
some people do not have to do anything and he/she'll get everything in world.
but some unfortunate people have to keep on trying, still, get nothing in the end.
this is what i call ; ' Everyone is equal, but some are just more equal than others'
Sigh.


* life sucks & how i wish tomorrow is the end of the world!
that would be the great!!