Closer and closer.

I heard it today, and yesterday. Its getting worse.

What I feared so much, feels so good.

To not give a damn, to give in to it.

Maybe it preparation for going into unfamiliar territory. If anything would happen there, he would be able to ensure any threat would be nullified.

Its so hard to fight against instinct sometimes. Yet sometimes instinct is the only thing that will keep you alive. But it can also strip you of what makes you human.

This trip will be a fight in more ways than one.


The short talk I had with coach before disembarking worries me.


was reading a girls blog.
& i found Reuben Kee's [one of the victim in the cambodia dragonboat tragedy] blog, i guess.
the text above is his last post, Nov 21.
i'd a great feeling that he at least know a bit of something that's going to happen during the dragonboat competition at combodia.
or perhaps he sense that something is going to happen at cambodia.
that's so sad for him :'(



& this is the last song he composed.
it just happens to be his last piano solo piece, Sigh.
the song is just so nice.
i'm heartbroken when listening, even though i do not know him.
The five boaters just died while flying the Singapore flag.
tears are almost going to flow down my cheeks when i heard about the dead of the five of them DD: