I feel much better after tearing for awhile.
i was really stressed up recently.
my heart kept reminding me 'YANYI, YOU MUST DO WELL FOR COMMON TEST! AT LEAST A C'
& today, saturday.
i woke up at 9 A.M
showered, then out i go, to my living room.
started mugging, till like 2 P.M
cos i really got the heart to study and score for my CA :(
but well who to blame?
i'm born with a dumb brain.
so while doing some maths qns [cos i can't do many many qns ): ]
i was thinking of finding a better tuition teacher for both my maths.
then something is being said by someone.
not hurtful actually.
but i was just feeling sad.
finding myself so not born-to-be-intelligent.
& yes, i cried.
for not long of course.
of else, my family will realise i'm missing.
cos i'm in the toilet. thinking why am i sucha useless person.
study study, practise practise.
still, as stupid as before D:
i really need a good teacher to support me.
was telling myself not to tears anymore, i must be even stronger, even more handworking.
then ive set my mind.
from Monday onwards.
i will stay in school, finish ALL my maths homework before going home.
if i didn't keep this promise i surely will feel damn guilty.
anyway i hope i can pull through this two years, without suffering from depression.
LOLLOL :s

but i'm really feeling more happier now.
though i didn't know how to do most of my maths homework still.
its just like, crying will lessen your burden.
honestly speaking, i haven't yet cried bcos of studies.
maybe last year, yup.
Final year, worrying that i'll retain. hahahhaha
not yet as in, not giving myself so much stress before CNY , just for the 1st Common Test.

alright alright.
no matter what.
for the time being, FUN come first :D
bcos its time for CNY alreadyyyy :]
sad to say, i'm not given time [due to studies] to go alter my jeans.
also i still need some time to buy a top, heels and stuff :(
actually i can go get everything done by tomorrow.
but i think i prefer to study first.
and i'll go library to study+homework with mates tomorrow :]